or do we have a choice
As I sit here at 5am listening to John Mayer's battle studies (on repeat), I think about his effect on us. Not just his impact, but other people of influential status. I'm sitting here feeling utterly miserable because I know that I will never form a relationship with Mr. Mayer, and yet his music influences me to need him. I have already formed a relationship with him and his music (In my mind, but obviously its not mutual. Is this healthy? He is giving me an intimate piece of himself, but its not real. He has expressed himself to me through his music but I will never be reciprocate those feelings. It's like a one-sided relationship. It never works out. He gives, we take, we fall, and he continues on, while we pine over these misleading emotions that were not meant for us. Because I know that I will never form a relationship with Mayer, I should be smart enough to know that I shouldn't expect anything from him, but that is what a great artist does. They can make you think that this song is for you and only you, they can make you fall in love, they can inspire you. It's your job to make us love you. Is this ability a gift or a curse? Should I cherish this trance that I am in over your music, your art, or should I be hurt because I cannot find an outlet to express these emotions. I am under music's spell...I have unwillingly and successfully suspended my disbelief.
::edit:: 9/29/2011
^^whoa, clearly I was obsessed with John Mayer's battle studies album.
